We are all called by God to do and be something.
And whatever that is, it is why He fearfully and wonderfully made us.
What do you do with that called?
For a long time, I ran and ran and ran. I would have moments where I thought I was ready, and God would send me some assignments, and I would be okay. Then He would send me a little more, and I would raise my eyebrows but still do it, and then God would send a more intense assignment, and I would be like, NAH, I’m good. And be done.
I would stop reading the Word as much. I would not pray as hard.
But why run in the first place?
Fear - this stopped me for a long time. Just fear of any and everything. What are people going to say about me? What do I sound like? And not being comfortable with my voice. It is important to understand that there is no growth in comfort. Honestly, fear is a lot of discomfort bursting out of the seams simultaneously.
Second guessing - I did this a lot. I would often wonder if God really sent me this to do and if I am really the one who should be doing it. By second guessing myself, I talked myself out of a lot of my assignments.
Our past - I often used my past to disqualify myself from God's grace and His plans for my life. Actually, we all do. I’ve done so many things wrong and taken the wrong turns. Honestly, sometimes, I did things intentionally. Yup, I can admit that 100 percent. I knew exactly what I was doing in the past, but I did not understand the future implications. Thank God for His provisions and for not holding our past against us.
The unknown - this used to scare me a lot more. It was also my controlling nature that needed to know every step. Now, I am mostly unbothered. God is my father, and He would never set His child up to fail. I can walk more confidently knowing this.
I had to make up my mind and heart that I was No Longer A Runner. No matter my discomfort, I will not throw in the towel.
Here is a scripture many of us know well: Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans and thoughts that I have for you,’ says the Lord, ‘plans for peace and well-being and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope."
We must understand that all of our tasks and assignments from God have a purpose. We are called to live a life ordained by God filled with spiritual growth, optimism, and Benevolence from God.
No Longer A Runner requires patience and trust in God's timing.
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